Oh well, whatcha waiting for?

things are awful. i cant even began to explain it. I just want to curl up in a ball and go unnoticed be everything. im so tired.

I GOT A JOB AT TOYS R US!!!!!!!!!!!

I have been really bad at updating. :(
beauty school has been really good, i passed my haircutting test with an almost perfect score. I'm learning haircolor right now and its kinda terrifying.

i promise a much better update soon.

So things have been pretty okay, I guess. I really need to get better at posting more often.
Things for beauty school are getting wrapped up. I'm getting a little over 9,000 dollars in grants and the rest will be covered with loans. I was really happy. The 9,000 covers almost half of my total tuition.
I still have a few last minute things to get before then (a bit more school clothes, shoes, note cards, ziploc bags, etc.) but otherwise Im all ready to go. I'm really anxious to start. During the summer I feel like I'm doing nothing with my life and it really brings me down. It'll be nice to have a reason to get up in the morning. (And Versailles, you are a reason to get up in the morning, but after you leave i usually crawl back into bed lol)
I am a huge make up geek and I ordered two 88 color palettes, one in matte and one in ultra shimmer. I just found out they're being shipped today, so I should hopefully get them soon.
I also ordered a bunch of piercing aftercare stuff. I have a little bump behind my nose piercing and I know antibacterial soap wont make it go away. So I will soon have an army of products to make them heal faster and feel nicer.
My ma has had a lot of fun telling people about Versailles and I being engaged. I usually have a hard time saying it, because I tend to giggle. I'm just so happy that it's out and in the open now. Versailles' mom and my dad still don't know, and I like it this way. I know if we tell them, they'll probably end up saying things to bring us down and we really don't need that right now.
I'm in dire need of a hair cut. my bangs have gotten so long I don't know what to do with them. I would like to get that fixed before I start school because I just can't see starting beauty school with bad hair. gotta fix it soon.
This saturday versailles and i are going to ohio to spend some time with my brother and his girlfriend. I'm probably going to leave my phone here because it wont work there and in case i get school calls, my ma would be able to answer it. My brother sorta freaked over Versailles and I being engaged, and he tried to say i was too young, but i reminded him that his ex wife was the same age as me when they got married and im nowhere near as insane as she is. i hope me plays it cool when we're there.

well, i think i've played around on the internet long enough. It's time for a shower, breakfast, and then time to find something productive to do.

or maybe just play more sims 3.

TODAY IS MY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!

Versailles and my ma gave me my presents at midnight and I got a wii (my first console ever!!!!!!!), the bleach wii game, bleach season 1 on dvd, and a 120 gb black classic ipod! Today I'm going to go to Walmart to get my laptop, camera and new flat iron! I'm very very excited!!!!!



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            Things with my dad haven't changed. He told me that I would wreck my face and would be ugly when I got my piercings. When I tried telling how much that hurt me, he tried to deny saying it. This lead to a huge  arguement in which i told my dad that he stresses me out. His response? What could you possibly be stressed about? You don't have a job or bills to pay, you cant be stressed. I'm going to get the rest of my stuff from his house on Friday and then I'm no longer speaking to him. Oh yeah, and when I told him I was going to get my stuff, me told me he already put most of it in a box. Seriously? What if I had planned on coming back? Way to go Dad. That really hurt. After I got off the phone I started balling my eyes out. I am so foolish. Part of me still hoped he would care. Oh well, it's his loss. He'll never hear about my wedding, my future children and the amazing future I hope to have. I still can't believe he willing cut off ties to the last blood relative he has. I need to put up a wall and not let it bug me. I've already decided I'm done with him, so now I need to move on.
           So Versailles has talked to my mom about proposing to me. Yes, we're already engaged but we need to do it offically, for everyone. I know none of the details except that it might be soon. I'm insanely curious but I will refrain from asking because I dont want to annoy him.

Well, this is more than enough for this late at night. Hurrah, my 18th bday is in a week.

i did have intentions of actually posting and writting about some things that have been going on, but it's bugging me too much. maybe tomorrow.

So after a major blowout and after following Versailles' mother's annoying conditions, he now lives with me. Not exactly in the same room, but this is still super exciting news! I'm so happy that he no longer has to put up with his mother's crap. His happiness means the most to me, and well, he looks pretty happy right now.

Versailles says: I am finally happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today is june 23rd.
That means in exactly one month, I'll be 18.
Cue the confetti and applause.
I don't know, as excited as I am, I'm scared.
I like safety and familar things.
Being thrust out into the 'adult' world freaks me out a little.
What if I'm not ready?

 


i promised, pics so here they are! <3

i need to sleep soon. going to Rockford, IL at 7AM.
yipes.